Through the Floor Boards (Jul-01-2007)

I couldnt stand to let you go,
Upstairs I lay on the bedroom floor
Just to hear that you were still breathing.
Night after night I fell asleep
On a tear stained pillow at the thoughts
of you leaving.

Day after day I passed your room
to see you laying in bed,
Staring out the window as though
watching for the gates of Heaven
to open.

Watching, I knew you were in pain
and wanted you to be free,
but I knew you leaving would
cause the heart ache of so many
including me.

There were days I didnt know what what to say to you.
So I simply sat and held your
hand, hoping that was some how
enough to keep our connection.
Night after night I listened to
you breathe through my bedroom floor,
Afraid to fall asleep for fear
of that breath falling silent.

Sometimes its as if I still
hear you breathe as I jump
awake in the bed, only to realize
that breath was silenced two years ago.