The Monster Within (May-26-2005)

I have to keep it locked inside,
All this evil, I have to hide.
It’s pushing, scratching, trying to get out,
Closer, further, as each breath leaves my mouth.

It tries to exit with every tear,
Its pushing so hard and getting so near.
It haunts my dreams, and my every thought,
It’s the only battle I haven’t fought.

I hold my breath till I turn blue,
I’m screaming, crying, reaching for you.
It’s like an alien locked up in me,
It can’t hide anymore, it wants to be free.

I hold my breath to keep it in,
There is no way I’ll let it win.
I’ll keep it in until I die,
It grows bigger, stronger with every lie.

It’s clawing at me, I’m bleeding to death,
It’s getting out more with every breath.
I’m holding my breath, won’t let it win,
I will defeat the monster that lives within.